i went home for a bit over easter break. three weeks. i got stuck in the whole volcano fiasco. it was ridic.
i’m pretty sure no one reads my tumblr.
i find it really interesting how everyone at home is completely the same. no one has changed at all. roger is still at city, making music. beck, xax, and zahnen are all still getting into trouble, trying to graduate from high school, only difference is next year they will be college freshmen. minxi got her shit together. and ben and kevin are still loveable assholes.
they’re (we’re) still all trying to scrape by. get what needs to get done, done, crashing where ever. the only difference is some can drive but it’s still taking the bus all over the city. getting whatever we can. money rules. going where ever. getting mexican food. getting baked at becks. trying to figure out what to do with life and time. trying to abide by parents rules.
my friends are all the same. stuck in the same cycles and when i go home, it’s exactly the same.
i love the city and i love the people. it’s just the same stupid routines i hate. (also my mother’s rules)
one day it’ll change but it wont be for a few year.
in the future i’ll have my friends. hopefully they’ll all be in the city after whatever. i’ll settle down with tyler. maybe we can even buy back that house on judson. i would love that.
for now things are the same and i’m waiting for the change. maybe it’ll come maybe it won’t but i know one thing is for sure, i’ve changed.
